Thanks

Thanks for coming down

It takes so long , so much energy ... i know because i drive a lot too. Thanks for coming back .. for 3 straight weeks ... I know you work so hard so we can see each other every weekend. I know you didnt have to do that but you did and I love you so much for that... cant wait to see you this weekend again.

Lion

THings changed...

So many months has passed, yes im not a regular blogger.

Many things has happend, so much so i was surprised.
First of all i became fellowship leader, something i wouldnt have expect my entire life. Since I became fellowship leader I put on a more serious face, friendly face and carry the burden to try to lead the fellowship into better spiritual growth. Many things have to consider, many things has to be debate, amny advise has to be listen, hopefully im doing the right thing and leading the fellowship into the right direction.

As for my personal life, many things happened too.

Many things i have learnt, who to trust, who can not be trusted. Who is buddy for life and who is not. How feelings can be a lie too. How when u think u trying to do a right thing, ending up people said u nosed too much and hate you. Next time just do not care about anything, except for those you REALLY REALLY care about.

Finally I found my love, yes it was crazy 2 weeks. I have only met not too long ago. Trully in love wit her
realised dont need to say much. She is the one for me. Not too tight, enough for me to catch a breath sometimes but willing to play cuddle and loving couple when we are together. Doesnt complain tht im not always wit her. Probably this is how we keep things afresh. Doesnt need me to hang on the phone 24/7 but still loving when i needed too. Love me for who I am I dont need to be super good /gentle man meaning i dont need to strech myself. Loving her more the moment i wake up thr is a kiss, a good morning kiss. Breakfast is ready, room is well tided. Although doesnt need her to do those, but she did it and i love her for that too. Talked about our future together, even started on talking about "Little Lionel" haha some wat surprise me too.

But for who i am today. I dont think i will go to the end. I will want to save some for later. Hope she will understand.

Loving and happy crazywildman

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scared I might not do well this semester. But some subjexts are alright i guess i have to keep my head down the work hard to the rest of the semester.

We won again yesterday though a little scary at the end but hey a win is a win

Lonely...

Nice get to go out with the gang after a long long time since i go for fellowship.

Had a good practice today. But much to do to improve.
After practice was driving home too lazy to prepare late lunch so stop by Mcd. realised how lonely I am, didnt feel too good. sigh.

need to work on my test ... first term test is coming

busy busy busy

Because of some reason I had to take 20 credit hours this semester. This makes me full with work. Then again im good at makin time for myself to play.
Volleyball season coming up. First season into the amature league. Some what exciting and a little worried. What if we get beaten badly this would kill some spirit for volleyball. Every one well almost everyone is working hard. Some even play, well they no longer play anymore they train everyday. Due to study and my body dont really allow me to play everyday. Its putting strain on my body. How often i do sports everyday not since after SPM.
Then again I didnt play volleyball for almost a month this makes me really out of form. Need more play time. Basics and timing are completely out.
After sport looking back at my studies ... So much to do ...then again happy i got few professor really relax :)
Work hard for everything la.....

Its been a long long time my friend.

Its been a long since I last blog. I lost sense of why should I blog in the first place. Then again if if i dont blog who else can i pour my heart out too. Partly because i dont like to blog bcos of my broken english makes me embraress of myself.

School havent started for me. Snow+ ice = holiday . Sometimes i feel my days wasted lo. New semester cant wait for it to end. But end it well .

I saw her yesterday
first time after almost 2 months or even more than tht i lost count. Yes i some what given up because i feared for the worst thats coming if i insist on. Call me a chicken call me useless. She has a boyfriend (which everyone knows about it but I dont some how she never mention to me). plus she misses home so much. probably because of the boyfriend la. And she is goin home this november. I know i should give myself a chance. but why makes things worst while things isnt too bad
although its not the way i want well, nothing in this world always go the way you want isnt it?

Yes happy that I found the old song. Been listening to it the whole day
although it didnt end well but hey i take it as it is.