Decisions

We have to all make decisions, sometimes there is decisions tough to make. Which is better, for oneself or for others. Do we have to make decisions just for ourself?? Or do we need to considerate others in our decision making.. Would sacrifice ourself to benefit others? We often see in movies where one have to make a decision to sacrifice itself to bring others happiness. I wonder how many could have done that. How many can make a decision to end some one's life if they are really in pain.

Little cow is going to leave us. Sis asked Why wouldnt I pay him a visit. Dont know why, I dont really want to meet him. Seeing him that weak makes me sad. But I finally took a look at him today. He is really weak, couldnt even lift up him head. Could only move his tail a little to acknowledge that Im there. Sad to see when you love something has to die and leave us and we will never meet again.

A little memory ~

These few weeks came and go that fast. Times flies, sometimes i really wish that God would turn back the time. I always said if you can only turn back 4.5 years ago, I would do things much differently. If I knew I would be this bad. I want to be better. I felt I wasted a lot of things. Sigh

Sis and Family came back, I didnt know i miss them that much until they were gone. Baby Laynce came back but he isnt tht fat anymore. Suddenly, I think I saw my own reflection on him. Trully, he really does look like im small. Suddenly I fear, will he be like me. Its definately not a good thing. Sigh, helplessly scared he would be like me. Not that I did something really that bad . But I am dissapointed with myself. Hopefully he wont step the road I have walk.

Mag was talking the other day, If Jay will be like me that would be good. Sigh, even I dont want to be myself. How good would that be. Sadden myself



Trully regret I drag myself onto this path.

Lion