I miss you..

Things kept me reminding of you... I miss you so much Jenn

Something special happened yesterday. After talking to a friend, I did shed tears as I really think I lost you forever. I told him everything, he asked me to pray. Something I didnt do for myself for a very long time. I prayed once in a while, but I did pray for her Happiness lately but I didnt think I deserve for myself. I didnt go church for a very long time so I didnt pray anything for myself. After listening to his advise. : " If the pain is so unbareable, pray to Him ask him to take away the pain" after listening to that I cried. Quietly I prayed for the Jennifer, Kp and myself.

Later that day, I went to a Chinese-American restaurent where they usually give out fortune cookie.
Mine wrote "God looks after you especially"
I was so amazed and comfort that even God knows so much, He cared so much, He knows Im in pain.
I felt so much comfort when I think of her I dont feel pain. Yes in truth, I feel a little lost and missing her now, but I have God's love.

Just no matter wat is outcome. I now know He already planned it for me.
Perhaps I will fall again, but there is something to learn and reflect on.
So Im not in pain anymore
Ya once in a while I will miss you.
But in my mind there is only happy moments we shared. Thats wat important


Thank you G and Lord

Lionel

when you know it.. its already too late.

the world seems normal before she came into my life.
She came into my life, my life seems so colorful sometimes its yellow and sometimes its dark.
You never know wat color can be next. But she brought colors into my life.
Always thought I could do fine without her.
Now she left, she took everything with her ... my life became colorless and dull.

I miss you

I ....

Got my itouch yesterday, I was uploading songs and pictures to the new gadget...
I remember the songs I sing to you, songs I sing when I am driving
I remember the songs You sang to me when I request to hear your sweet melody
I remember I requested to hear you play piano. Music was part of our love
I remember as if u just sing it to me. Thanks for your effort
I only can blame myself again...


I have love you ..... too late...

In saddest songs and movies

My heart is broken. Trust me, thats not just expression, I felt it, every single bit breaking from whole. I still love her. Its true, that first love, its true love, dont you ever let it go. Fight for it, even if it seems pointless. Ill never give up. I love you, and always will. Until dying days come. And even in death, forever urs.

I so need her. God help me.
..will love her forever and not a day less..

How is it possible that my heart beats for her, and hers beats against me?
How is it possible that I still remember and she doesnt even care?
Memory on her is slowly faddeing tho, but remains long enough to hurt. I wish it all could go away

I made a memory

I made something I want to cry.

Its so hard to forget, when there is so much empty space when you are gone

Lost ...

Have you ever feel that you lose your taste,
everything seems so tasteless.
Have you ever feel time goes so slowly,
every minutes seems to be hours
Have you ever love some one,
so bad it will makes you cry.

I have

I think I can manage it after see em today. Im proud of myself.
Im already 23, have to tell myself. I have to be a man


Lionel

So sad.

I am so sad but yet I must be happy. Its so hard to do .

I had to do something. Something I really dont want to do. but has to be done ... sigh i really dont want to.

Lionel

Lionel be strong please

背叛 | Bei Pan | Betrayal

背叛 | Bei Pan | Betrayal

曲：曹格
Qu : Cao Ge
Music: Gary Cao

詞：阿丹/鄔裕康
Ci: A Dan/Wu Yu Kang
Lyrics: A Dan/Yu Kang Wu

Translations: Ling - www.jay-chou.net

雨　不停落下來
Yu　bu ting luo xia lai
Rain　falls continuously

花　怎麼都不開
Hua　ze me dou bu kai
Why　doesn't the flower bloom?

儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛
Jin guan wo xi xing guan gai　ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai
Despite my careful watering　you just say you won't love and don't love

我一個人　欣賞悲哀
Wo yi ge ren　xin shang bei ai
I　watch and appreciate the sorrow alone


愛　只剩下無奈
Ai　zhi sheng xia wu nai
Love　is left with only helplessness

我　一直不願再去猜
Wo　yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
I　kept refusing to guess

鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白
Gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian　yong yuan dou jia zhe kong bai
White emptiness will always fill the gap 　between the black keys of the piano

缺了一塊　就不精采
Que le yi kuai　jiu bu jing cai
Missing a piece　it can never be exciting


＊緊緊相依的心如何Say Goodbye
＊Jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he Say Goodbye
＊How can two hearts that rely on one another say goodbye

　你比我清楚還要我說明白
　Ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo shuo ming bai
　You know better than I do, yet you still want me to say it

　愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢
　Ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan
　Loving so deeply can make people crazily courageous

　我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼
　Wo yong bei pan zi ji　wan chenni de qi dai
　I betray myself　to reach your expectations


　把手放開不問一句Say Goodbye
　Ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju Say Goodbye
　Letting go, not asking anything, and say goodbye

　當作最後一次對你的溺愛
　Dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai
　Let it be the last indulgence I give you

　冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
　Leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan
　Coldly, drearily, mildly (I) will no longer watch (over you)

　只要你能愉快＊
　Zhi yao ni neng yu kuai＊
　As long as you can be happy＊


心　有一句感慨
Xin　you yi ju gan kai
(My) heart　has only one regret

我　還能夠跟誰對白
Wo　hai neng gou gen shui dui bai
Who　can I still ask to

在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看
Zai ni guan shang men zhi qian　ti wo zai hui tou kan kan
Before you close the door　look back again for me

那些片段　還在不在
Na xie pian duan　hai zai bu zai
to see if (our) snippets　are still there





She did not betray me, just I betrayed myself

Lionel

Fireproof

I woke up this morning my sister suggest that I watch this movie. As usual dont have mood lately for any movie , but she said u can watch it over utube. Since I have nothing better to do I watch it.

From the start, I felt so close to the Main character. Caleb the way he treat his wife. Same thing disrespectful and yelling at her. Telling every one its over. I cannot take any of this anymore. Things happen, like in real life, real problems. The acting a little off but whats most important is the lessons it brings.

How I wished there were some like Caleb's dad to cool me off.

quotes i picked up and I felt i so wanting to tell her this

"I am so sorry. I have been so selfish. That I have love other things when I should have love you. God have given me a love for you that I never have before, asking for you to forgive me, praying that you somehow would forgive me. I do not want to live the rest of my life without you."

"Grow old together and love you with all my heart."

She gave me a ring when she last went back to HK. It was too big I cant wear it, with a swipe of my hands it will fly off. But I thought it was only because it was too big. After losing her, I found my ring in my bag. I put it on it fits and it didnt come out unless I yank it. I made a reflection, it was fit because I wasnt fit to wear the ring. I didnt care about her, I didnt love her, most of all I didnt appreciate her. That is why I wasnt fit to wear the ring. But now I can wear it, because I trully realised how important she was for me and it is too late. Thank you for everything

Everything happen and not happen for a reason.

There is no accident - Kung fu Panda

Lionel

Great decision.

I cant do anything. Ive already done my part.

To love is not to hold

Lionel

Really tired~

Cant sleep cant focus cant do anything right.

Now only I realised you are the world to me. a bit too late though. You have moved on.
I missed your sweet voice. I missed your little trantrum. I missed our moment together.
Im so sorry I treat you badly, Im so sorry I wasnt who I supposed to be. Im sorry for myself.
I hate myself now for letting you go. I hate myself for not treating you right.
You take away my happiness.
When I see you now I dont know wat to say. I just want to sit in a corner and cry.
I never thought u were that important to me until you left me.

T.T